Every once in a while someone says, "I can't imagine being in law school AND being pregnant. How are you handling it?" And I feel like that's my cue to say breezily that it's not a big deal. But lately, it is.
Yesterday I had four interviews, in three different places, along with class. I raced around all day in the hot weather in my suit and heels carrying my heavy bag and didn't have time to eat or go to the bathroom. Last year, this would have been okay. A little stressful, sure, but nothing that a good night's sleep wouldn't cure. But now it's not okay. I feel exhausted. My feet hurt, my back hurts, and worst of all I realize that I am not taking care of my baby. Part of it is not planning ahead. I wasn't thinking when I left home -- I should have at least packed something to eat. Mostly it's because I've been prioritizing law school stuff over my health. I know it's not worth it. But I've already cut back on my commitments. What else am I supposed to do -- not show up to my clinical? Blow off my next interview? Not prepare for class? Meanwhile, my house is dirty, dinner isn't getting cooked, and errands aren't getting run because by the time I get home I can barely stay on my feet.
No one promised me it would be easy. I just have to figure out how to make it all work.
